I hope no one tolk my reply the wrong way, i'm not trying to tell any one off or anything like that. I DO value any and all input from you all, but it really has to be at the right time in the project. It's like changing a tire on your car wile doing 100k on the high way,lol.
 I, my self might have taken the past few post the wrong way or maybe read in to it to much. I know you guys, your a great bunch. If by chance my massage was taken wrong, i'm sorry. I've been annoyed at people checking if i have permissions for these project, wile the guy that designed them visits from time to time and reply's that he likes my work. And the links and pic to Studio quality work shakes my confidants as i feel like i'm being compared to them. Like i said, i was trying to stay at my goal of under 15k.
 I very well have mis read in to all this, again i'm sorry. I have had very little sleep the past few nights. I'm turing 30 in a 24 hours, funny thing is there is a change it might be my last. Next week i have an operation, everything looks good up till the time they tell me there are risks, and there is a 2% chance that an avrage person would not make it. Put i'm a smoker and over wight that my risk is higher.
I don't know why i'm writing this, maybe it will help me. I work 2 job and one is my own company, and when i'm home i wait for my wife to come home. Other than my wife the only real conversation that i have is here and with my team, and i have not even told them yet. Don't get me wrong, i do have friends and family, but i'm a long way from home, across the world, so its really hard to talk about something like this in an email.
So with this stress consuming my thoughts, i've been modeling my ass of trying to let my mind off the possibility. So i guess its fair to say i mis understood your intents, so im sorry.